05.23.08
Out of My Head
Sebastian has taken to randomly text messaging me.
Sometimes, it is innocuous statements like, “My sister just had a baby!” Other times, its plaintive: “I miss you.”
A few weeks ago he sent me this at one in the morning: “I am sitting at the bar in the Four Seasons and thinking of you. I know that you’ve moved on, but I wish we could be together.”
I had enough. I have successfully put him in The Past, and he was refusing to stay there. I texted him back, “You are right, I have moved on. It was hard, but completely for the best. Goodbye.”
No more than a minute passed when he texted back, “So, you really did move on, huh?” I knew what he was trying to do. Trying to draw me back in to his web, trying to test my resolve, trying to assuage his ego. Little did he know that I was speaking (texting!) the truth, and that I have absolutely ZERO interest in him. I haven’t sent another text. I have said goodbye, and I mean it.
Margarita said,
May 23, 2008 at 9:31 am
Go you!
MazingAmy said,
May 24, 2008 at 9:04 pm
Good for you!
Dinkerwald said,
May 26, 2008 at 4:51 pm
It’s about time, good for you kiddo.
Sara Jane said,
May 27, 2008 at 1:17 pm
Why do boys suck so bad…if you really care, leave me alone. That’s what I need most!
It’s so clarifying when you learn to let go!
Angela said,
May 28, 2008 at 10:05 am
Good for you! Don’t respond. He was just drunk anyway.
M said,
May 28, 2008 at 7:09 pm
Congrats! I just did the same thing recently, sent the final goodbye text to someone it took so long for me to let go of. It’s not always easy but it’s been worth it; I feel better, lighter, free.
Anyway, just started reading your blog - I really like it!
A Lil' Irish Lass said,
May 30, 2008 at 9:18 am
Good for you! I’m so proud of you!!!
Scomerican Girl said,
June 1, 2008 at 2:19 am
Such a hard step to take, even when the decision is easy. Good for you for sticking to your guns.
blogging barbie said,
June 5, 2008 at 4:12 pm
i’m so beyond happy for you lady. yayy! its such a great feeling, isnt it?
xo,, b
Ann said,
June 15, 2008 at 8:35 am
Don’t send another text…stand to your guns, you did the right thing.
Psst…I found you off of the blogroll at http://scottishtales.wordpress.com
Savannah said,
June 15, 2008 at 9:14 pm
This makes me feel hopeful inside. Maybe one day I’ll be there too.
Jilly O. said,
June 26, 2008 at 2:09 pm
Hi Nicole,
Just checking in to see how things are going. Glad to read this post. Sometimes you need to be firm like that. I do think it’s for the best for you and even for Sebastian.