01.29.08
ABCs
Hi all! Yes, I am still alive. But with a combination of being crazy busy at work, not a lot of drama in my personal life, and the fact that Jameson and I are talking about looking for a place together NEXT WEEK, well, I haven’t really gotten around to the blogging. I am definitely glad Anna is back, too, by the way. Since I’ve been uninspired to write about anything creative, I thought I’d resurrect the meme that was going around a few months ago…
Admiring: Those Christian Louboutins that Anna showed. People with confidence.
Beating myself up about: Not having any discipline to work out or diet. Not having confidence, always second guessing myself.
Crying over: Nothing right now. Yay!
Daydreaming about: Getting a new place with Jameson and having it be FABULOUS.
Excited because: We are talking about traveling together over the summer. And, of course, moving in together.
Frustrated because: Many of my friends, when I tell them about the whole moving in thing, have been generally negative. Not outright negative, and not because they hate him, but I think it is because they hate the idea of me taking this next step, since I’m the first one to do so. I feel petty for even bringing this up, but does anyone know what I’m talking about? I get a lot of, “Ohhh….wow….that’s such a big step….yeah….but what about [roommmate]?…Do you think you guys will get married?….Wow….ok….” No fun girly squees of joy, no omg-I’m-so-happy-for-yous, nothing. I could understand if this guy is wrong for me (like if I was moving in with Sebastian) but Jameson is a good guy, and we are good together. And I know that all of my friends are pretty much really REALLY single, so a part of me feels like it is a little bit of jealousy on their part.
Grumpy because: I’m not really grumpy today!
Hate-filled and seething over: Not really hate-filled and seething over anything right now!
Indignant because: I’m trying to save money but my credit card balances are not going down. How could this be? I FEEL like I haven’t gone shopping in AGES.
Just shoot me now because: Work sucks. Specifically, dealing with our clients.
Kidding myself regarding: The fact that I will have any motivation at all to work out.
Listening to: Oddly enough, I haven’t been iPod-ing recently.
Mooning over: Jameson. He sent me the sweetest email today.
Need: A massage, facial, vacation. You know, the usual.
Obsessing over: Whether I should be blonde or brunette for spring.
Praying: That Jameson and I find a fabulous place relatively quickly and that we enjoy living together as much as we think we will.
Questioning: Everything. As usual.
Reading: Blogs. NY Times. I love election years!
Singing: “Happiest Girl in the Whole USA”
Trying: To make it to the weekend.
Unnerved by: How hard it is to work at a job you don’t LOVE.
Valentiney Update: Every day with J is Valentine’s Day.
Wondering: How my family will react when I tell them that I’m moving in with J.
X-rated action: Of course!
Yawning over: My friend’s talk of getting pregnant. I think she’ll be a great mom, but is it really necessary to know that you are “pre-nesting”?
Zoinks: Is the weekend here yet??
Jennifer said,
January 29, 2008 at 8:10 pm
Hey I guess i am a regular now…I like the design of your website and of course the content. Don’t you think its weird for you to yawn over your friend’s big step of pregnancy, but feel your friends are jealous for your “big step” of moving in together? I think its not an issue of jealousy. Maybe they enjoy flirting on a daily basis with different guys, only having themselves to worry about. maybe its an issue of relatibility or indifference. You are no longer in their club. PLEASE PLEASE remember to maintain your own hobbies and ambitions aside from your man.
Good luck and I’m out!
A Lil' Irish Lass said,
January 29, 2008 at 9:19 pm
How bad is it that it took to the very end until I realized that this was one of those alphabetical memes. I feel vaguely retarded.
Kenzie said,
January 30, 2008 at 4:13 pm
I hate when friends are negative about things I’m really excited about. I hope you and J have a fabulous time living together! You seem really happy, and that’s all that matters.
Nicole said,
January 31, 2008 at 3:13 pm
Hi Jennifer! Thanks for the comment. You know, I wondered that too, when I wrote it. Like, “Am I just as bad as I am accusing my friends of being?” My pre-nesting friend is not even pregnant, and does not plan on getting pregnant for at least another 6 months. Yet, she still speaks of buying a baby bag and who will host her baby shower. I try to be supportive, but I am (to be honest) yawning on the inside. Perhaps it is the same? Regardless, I am learning to be supportive of my friends and whatever they decide to do (unless I horribly object) and also cut my friends some slack about however they react me whatever I’m doing (and to think twice if THEY horribly object). So, it is all good I guess.
Anna said,
February 3, 2008 at 11:54 pm
Hey I like that blog format! How great you guys will be travelling over the summer!!! I hope you know that I’m always so happy for you, that you found a great thing with Jameson…sometimes I’m in awe, cause it seems so perfect - especially after Sebastian, I kind of have to wrap my mind around it! Sometimes I wonder if you are excited, cause you seem so calm and collected about the whole thing, which is probably good and wise, but it may not elicit those fun girly squeals you are looking for. I know I usually mirror the level of excitement my friends have when they bear the good news…but here’s a cyber squeal for ya: YAAAYYYYY! Congratulations!!!
:) 
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