12.31.07
2008 is gonna be GREAT!
Ok, I know that was kind of lame, but I’m working on short notice. I really want to do this year in review post, but I don’t really know how to start it or what to say. 2007 was a seminal year, to be sure. I see it divided in two ways: (1) Pre-Jameson and post-Jameson; and (2) Pre-new job and post-new job. Mostly, I guess you could say that 2007 was the year I grew up.
In January 2007, I was in love with a man that was not in love with me (or that couldn’t love me the way I deserved, whichever). I defined my life not by “being happy” but by how many nights a week I went out and how many times I could get him to say that he loved me. He broke up with me in mid-January, and I was heartbroken for a month. I met another man, SP, who taught me that perfect men “on paper” are sometimes not perfect men in real life. And that it was better to be alone than to settle for something not-quite-perfect. Up through June (when Sebastian moved away) was constant relationship drama - getting my heart bruised every other day, floating on cloud nine the other times. I was addicted to the drama.
In July I met Jameson and my world changed. It wasn’t anything that he did (except maybe love me), but suddenly, I could see that my life was more than just bars and clubs and how many nights I could go out. Suddenly, I thought about what I was doing with my life, what I wanted to do with it; thinking about the future, hoping that he would be in it. And, I know that I needed that time with Sebastian to learn and grow, but I also know now that I can’t go back to him (or that life) ever again.
In 2008, I’m hoping to learn about life as part of a couple - an honest to god one. I’m sure there will be a lot of bumps along the way, but I’m ready. Bring it on! Happy New Year, everyone!!
La said,
December 31, 2007 at 3:44 pm
Here’s hoping you have an absolutely fantastic New Year’s!
Bexxie said,
December 31, 2007 at 8:40 pm
YaY!! - Happy New Year!! xx
Dinkerwald said,
January 1, 2008 at 2:05 pm
May your New Year be filled with joy, fulfilling in love and happiness, and the drama kept to a minimum !
Amy said,
January 1, 2008 at 11:55 pm
Happy New Year Nicole!!!!
AmyD said,
January 2, 2008 at 8:37 am
You’ve experienced important growth that will serve you well in the new year, I have no doubt about that. Enjoy the ride, lady! You certainly have earned it.
Miriam D said,
January 2, 2008 at 10:30 am
I feel I’m beginning to change in the same way that you have changed this year.
Happy New Year! And I’m glad you’re starting the new year on a high note.
Margarita said,
January 2, 2008 at 4:21 pm
Happy New Year! Yay for no drama! Drama is bad
Tilly said,
January 4, 2008 at 11:06 am
2008 IS going to be great! Promise! I can feel it in my bones and in my heart.
TexasCinderella said,
January 9, 2008 at 7:31 am
Happy New Year! I’m in the “constant relationship drama - getting my heart bruised every other day, floating on cloud nine the other times” phase. Here’s to finding my own Jameson and being a part of my very own real life couple!