12.14.07

Dear Sebastian:

Posted in Dating Diaries, Relationship ups and downs at 2:51 pm by Nicole

Thanks for the “you don’t know how incomplete my life is without you”text message in the middle of the night.  I sense this is a pattern for you:  radio silence for weeks at a time, then a random text message.  The text message varies in urgency from “I love you, I can’t live without you!” to “Do you know how to fix a blackberry?”  I haven’t responded to any of them, and everytime I think that I’ve heard the last from you (since weeks have passed) I get another random text message.  How do you have such impeccable timing? 

The very fact that you are sending me text messages once a month but proclaiming your undying love just reinforces the fact that we have…very different interpretations of being in love and being in a relationship.  Obviously, I would think that if you loved someone, you would be in contact more frequently - and maybe even ask how the other person is doing - instead of just making dramatic declaratory statements without any follow through.  It is easy to type and hit send; it is harder to actually be in a relationship. 

I know the difference now.  Before, I used to fall for your grand statements.  I used to think that you’d one day back them up.  Now I see that you are all talk no action.  And now?  Could you please just stop with the text messages?  I’m not going to change my mind, I’m not going to take you back and go back to the non-relationship we had.  It’s too little too late, and while I never say never, I will say that when I envision my ideal future, it looks a lot more like what I have right now with Jameson than what it ever looked like with you.

I wish I could tell you these things.  But then again, maybe my silence speaks for itself.

Goodbye,  Nicole.

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Also:  I bought the nano (engraved!) so I can’t return and get a new gift.  I hope he still likes it….

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