12.11.07
Christmas catastrophe! (And my emotions get tested, AGAIN)
Hello? Have we met? I’m Nicole and I LIKE TO CREATE DRAMA IN MY RELATIONSHIP EVEN WHEN THERE IS NONE.
A little backstory: Have you seen the new iPod Nanos? Super teensy and cute and looks amazing right? And from what I could tell, Jameson was operating off a busted ass clunky regular iPod from, like two years ago. So, I decided to buy him a nano for Christmas! And it was going to be fabulous! And red, because we are philanthropic! And engraved! And he can take it hiking with him and it won’t weigh him down! And he can watch videos on that little screen! I have been patting myself on the back about this for almost a month, people.
So last night, when Jameson was in the shower, I decided to take a quick peek at his current iPod just to see how exactly old that old clunker was. I peered at it and noticed it was red, score! I knew he would like that color! And then I turned it on and…it looked suspiciously like a “newer” VIDEO iPod. Oh, shit. Did he already have a pretty new iPod and would have no real use for a nano?
I clicked around to try and see the date of his iPod and LO AND BEHOLD, what do I find? Oh yes, a playlist, named “Angie” which was the name of a girl that he was quasi-dating right before we met. And I click on the playlist, and it is all Modest Mouse-y songs, including a song by Interpol that I had just (in my own head) started to refer to as “our song”.
Ok. A few things. I KNOW that the playlist was probably made before he even met me. Hell, I have playlists named after my past three boyfriends on my iTunes, so I know how it goes. And the Interpol song WAS a coincidence; I heard it on the radio, and knew he liked Interpol, I liked the song, so I dubbed it “our song” - I don’t think I ever even told him.
I know all this but The Crazy started to take over nonetheless. Did he burn her a CD to show her how much he cared? He has never burned me a CD! Does he still keep in touch with Angie? He told me that she was transferred to a different department, I wonder if they still talk? Angie, if I remember correctly, is 22 and probably a model with an Ivy League degree. And how the HELL did Angie manage to steal our song??
So, let’s just break it down for y’all so that we know the score: Realizing that the Christmas gift I so carefully picked out was maybe NOT the perfect Christmas gift, like I originally thought? CHECK. Seeing YET another reminder of the fact that Jameson had a (romantic) life before he met me? CHECK. Losing out on a “song” because it appears to have already been claimed? CHECK.
Sigh. For those of you keeping score at home, that would be The Universe that Keeps Constantly Testing Me +3, My Frazzled Nerves - 1 gazillion.
Miriam D said,
December 11, 2007 at 6:30 pm
We are SO alike!! I’ve been dating my bf for FIVE years and I STILL do this shit. Seriously, it is not just you. I’ve got a bit of The Crazy too.
Don’t worry, you’ll find another perfect present for him.
La said,
December 11, 2007 at 6:37 pm
Hi, um, my sister and I? Are constantly talking about how we create our own drama when there isn’t any, and I don’t even want to admit to all the things The Crazy has made me do. Because you don’t have any control over The Crazy. It’s totally ok to be irrational.
Cricket said,
December 11, 2007 at 9:12 pm
Oh God, I understand. I am going through my own relationship drama at the moment, so I totally get it. I would go nuts seeing that too, then say nothing and fume silently for days.
Men are so… lame. Even when they don’t mean to be.
(new reader… hi!)
Each said,
December 12, 2007 at 8:27 am
done and done.
AmyD said,
December 12, 2007 at 10:03 am
OUCH, that smarts.
Hopefully you didn’t buy the nano yet (and it was still but a dreamy idea in your head)!! As for the playlist, I haven’t updated my own Nano in a gazillion years, and have playlists that I didn’t even LISTEN to anymore. How often does he update his, because I wouldn’t be at all surprised if that’s been on there for a long time and he has yet to even think about removing or renaming it. Even if I’m wrong, you just tell yourself this, OK?!? 
Margarita said,
December 12, 2007 at 4:42 pm
Oh, I totally would have reacted the same way. And been outraged. And super upset. And thought I have to address this. Is it a female trait that we must create drama where there is none? Still totally annoying though. My psycho self would have probably deleted it off his ITunes - “That’s so strange! My Itunes has been acting up too!”
Dinkerwald said,
December 17, 2007 at 7:24 pm
But it’s still OK for you to contact your former! Right!!!