06.01.07

Day 15: Giving My Heart a Break

Posted in the Secret Experiment at 7:03 pm by Anna

I’m learning that just because I love Wally & think of him 100 different times during the day with emails I want to forward, hilarious moments I want to tell him about, or just when I get weary and would give anything to rest my head on his chest…just because those experiences haunt me, doesn’t mean we’re meant to be together. At least not now.

I am learning to how to love him and be sad about losing him, and simultaneously know that this break up is exactly what needs to happen in my life right now. I see the perfection in it. And instead of being unspeakably frustrated that we got so close to having this awesome relationship and then failed, I can be fulfilled that he was in my life at a time when a relationship was the right thing for me, and now I have the freedom I need to take myself and my life to the next level.

And if I look forward instead of back over my shoulder (this is where the ‘Secret’ techniques really help), I am excited because I know in time I will have the relationship I’ve always wanted. And whether it’s with him or someone else is of secondary importance. This time in my life is about enjoying the benefits of being single (no one to answer to, complete freedom in my scheduling choices, not being woken up way too early in the morning, etc). And it’s a time of delicous anticipation…like a kid in spring, waiting for the circus to come to town in the summer….

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