05.27.07
Day 10: I’m a Secret Virgin
Today is the first day I think I’ve really done this ‘Secret’ stuff the way I’m supposed to. Therefore, in a way it’s the first time - maybe I’m a Secret Virgin.!
I did all the visualizations in the morning, and throughout the day, when I caught myself thinking of all the things Wally did that make me furious, I used my willpower to stop thinking those thoughts, and visualize what I want instead.
(Oh, by the way, I’m not mad at him anymore. I told Nicole today that even a rollercoaster is more predictable and rational than I am these days - I go up and down like a yo-yo on steroids.)
The whole day I felt heartbroken. I missed him. I don’t know if my desire for him was just the lonliness kicking in, or the fact that I wasn’t exhausted for a change, (which is when I get totally cranky and mad at him).
Anyway, I’m still sad and confused, but I’m much better than the past few weeks - I feel like I’m taking my life back into my own hands. I just did the exercise of going through the day and noticing everytime the Law of Attraction was at work. Like how I’d think of something then it happened, or I changed my attitude about something and the situation changed immediately…there were like 5 incidents like that…I’m getting into this.
jason-facin' said,
May 27, 2007 at 10:52 pm
Honey, thinking positive is one thing, but having a broken heart is another. Don’t deny yourself the exquisite pain of missing the man you love. But I’m glad you are being healthy, you diva. You stay strong. My Diva friend Princess-Barrington got dumped by his man & cried for 3 days straight, then all of a sudden, poof! He was over it, and stealing 3rd base with the cutest guy on the block. Soo keep up the good work, I worship you, but don’t think it’s wrong to cry, baby!
ice kubera said,
May 28, 2007 at 5:34 pm
What are you visualizing? I saw the Secret & I’m a groupie! I think you can have anything you want in life. We all can. Today I visualed an empty parking space waiting for me at Venice Beach (unheard of, especially on Memorial Day!), and lo and behold, it worked!
bpgirl said,
May 28, 2007 at 6:44 pm
I agree, one of my favorite things about visualizing and thinking empowering thoughts is that I stop feeling like a victim, and start feeling like I’m in control of my own life. Hoooaahh!
TanyaT said,
May 28, 2007 at 7:38 pm
Obviously you love this guy a lot, and if things around you are changing as you do your visualizations, maybe your situation with Wally will change too. Once 2 people have such a strong connection, it doesn’t disappear so easily.