05.25.07
Who Got the Power?
I’ve been thinking about how my thoughts create my reality. Is that really true & how do I know? Is there such a thing as destiny? Is the final chapter of my story with Wally already written by some unknown author in the sky? If so, why am I not allowed to see it, or at least peek at the trailor?
It’s interesting, even though I have not texted anything dramatic or negative to Wally (in fact, just the opposite), he told me he didn’t want to be in touch because of all the drama…on one hand that sounds crazy. All my communications were low-key & super-positive. But on the other hand, from the point of view of the Law of Attraction, my thoughts were all poor-me, he’s-a-criminal. What a cliche! So in a weird way, the universe was reflecting my own mind
back to me…Hmmm…
I did focus on feeling good today. I focussed on my own inner happiness - not waiting for him to do what I want, say what I want or validate me in anyway. I just focussed on the feeling of happiness. And it worked! I felt better this afternoon than I’ve felt in along time, and it was for no apparant reason. The feeling wasn’t a reaction to anything, I just created it out of thin air. I’ve always been taught we cannot control our feelings, and it’s unhealthy to try. But today I literally made a decision to feel happy and it worked, and it was real. Is this one small step for me, and a possible giant step for womankind?
sweet victory said,
May 26, 2007 at 7:15 pm
I’ve been reading your blogs since you began, and you sound like a great person, but if you don’t mind me saying so, Wally sounds like a “Loser”. Note the capital “L”! I think you deserve better!
bpgirl said,
May 26, 2007 at 7:21 pm
I like thinking that I can have more say over my life by the way I think. I’ve always believed in destiny and soulmates, and I still do. But I’m starting to believe that when we expect good things, we get them, and when we expect life to suck, it usually does. I’m still looking for my soulmate, maybe I should start expecting him…